Friends

Reminds me baby of you
I break down and cry, next time I'll be true, yeah
Fever for lost romance, reminds me baby of you

So anyway, it's technically the 24th December which means it's Christmas Eve! Which means I need to start doing my work in 2 days..

You know, the longer I do this degree, the less I want to do it.
I might just get to the third year and be like, ok cool, I'm leaving now.

I never wanted to go to Uni for my own purposes anyway. I was misled and basically coerced into it with these ideas of meeting new people, making friends, having fun, getting a good job, etc. I have no doubts in my mind now that it's highly unlikely these things will come to fruition. I have friends, don't get me wrong. There are people I like. There are people I talk to, on occasion. I just don't feel much attachment to them. I will never be 'lifelong' friends with them. I suppose I don't feel like I think I ought to, about any of them. (Wonder whose fault that is..)

Whatever happened to my dreams anyway? The ones that I genuinely always wanted to do.. See the world, etc... Oh well :) We'll see what happens. I'm not actually in a bad mood, I'm in a festive, I-don't-give-a-fuck-about-uni mood.

Anyway - Merry Christmas and all that. :)

Hope you have a good'un xxx

No more strange Boy.
No more bumping into people randomly.
No more people running into my room every few minutes.
No more videos.
No more drunken silliness.
No more hurting myself laughing.
No more Tom :(

I'm going to miss him. A lot. :(

But hey.. I'm home. Who wants to do something? :)
Participation limited due to being on antibiotics (can't drink, or shouldn't..) and also weather-dependent, but I will do my best :)

And just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
I damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed, I don't know what to do
But to give part 2 of my

Better stand strong when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby don't back down

These are my confessions
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
These are my confessions
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life



Artie is actually a much better singer than Finn, but Finn is always used as the lead, probably because he's waaaaay hotter, and a kid in a wheelchair isn't much to look at really.

Last night was the big one-off charity gig run by our course. Loads of people in my year performed, and they were brilliant.

I basically ended up pulling some guy. He was cute.. Actually, very cute.. But a little ..odd. And erm, well, the upshot is, he's not on our course but he's friends with someone who i know on my course... And everyone saw us kissing. Including my tutors.

LOL.

Mortifying or what? I was ribbed this morning "trust you to pull someone five foot away from Tom (tutor) at the bar" lol true to be fair.

They have 3 weeks to get over it, though.

I wasn't even 'sposed to be drunked (on antibiotics; paying for it today though), but he bought me all my drinks, and I had a free dinner. Lol, good times.

Oh yeah, the best part? At one point I made him laugh, and I did a double-take like "I know that laugh?!" and it hit me that he reminds me of The One Who Got Away. Then I nearly died once I realised who he was so similar to. I'm only like, just a little bit in love with him. *squee* haha.

Anyway, yes. Weird, right? Really, really weird. I think I liked him more after I noticed his mannerisms are eerily similar to The One.

And more like I want to cry, if I tried.

EDIT: The christmas dinner went fine. Am very full, and now have jelly willies.

I don't think I care about this course anymore. I know that next year I will probably end up arguing with one of my teachers (because he's an utter wanker and is shit at teaching) and I dunno, maybe they'll kick me out or something.

I just don't give a fuck anymore.